Two years, I know that sounds like such a short time but I feel like we have been together our whole lives. He is everything to me, my best friend, my lover, my partner in crime.....everything. I don't know where I would be in my life had I not met Nick. I don't think I would have ever truely experienced what it was like to LOVE someone. So, today, I look back over the past two years of being his wife and I am thankful to have him in my life.
I LOVE YOU HONEY!!!! Happy Anniversary.
Ok, so it's Monday and I am already not super fond of Mondays, let's just say that they aren't my favorite day of the week. This morning when I woke up it was sunny and in the mid 40's. It was a gorgeous day because the inversion seemed to blow over because the winds have been pretty strong the past few days. The weather man told us that we were going to have a rough commute to work because there was a winter storm warning in effect and it was supposed to really come down. I don't know about our weather men around here. I mean, half the time they predict snow its warm enough to wear your swimsuit outside and sunny. So we went to work.
I sit near a window and it was so odd, because one minute I looked outside to see the sun and not more than five minutes later the sky was black and gloomy and the wind was really blowing. I have never seen anything like it before. It's like in movies when the evil villian is about to appear and the sky gets all crazy, it was almost sureal. Then came the snow. Complete white out. I was talking to Chrissy on Instant Messenger about 10:45 and mentioned the storm. "It's not snowing here" she said. I said "UH, it will be VERY soon. Are the kids at preschool? if so GO GET THEM NOW". I think she could tell I wasn't kidding because she took off about 5 minutes later to get them early.
It was about 30 minutes later I got a from Nick telling me Chrissy had just called him in a complete panick. Her van had broken down in the middle of State Street and it was a complete blizzard. Cars were sliding all over the place and she was stuck. The engine just wouldn't turn over. As if that is not scary enough in itself, but she had all 5 kids in the car! No heater, no lights, no nothing. I told her to call the police and have them come park behind her with their lights on so that no on hit her and I would be on my way to help. I didn't take the Durango today so I was thinking "how and the crap am I going to get them all home?" She called me back to tell me her father in law was coming to tow her van, so I just headed down to get the kids and get them home safe. She was able to get her car started long enough to make it to the edge of the road, but the police left just after because there were so many wrecks they couldn't stay and help.
I was really nervous driving there. I have never driven in anything like that. I watched a guy in front of me do a 360 degree turn and land in the other lanes of traffic, several accidents were off to the shoulder of the road. There had been no plowing and things were a mess. My car does pretty good in the snow but I was still sliding all over the place. I finally made it there and we piled all 5 kids in my car. Chrissy has an 8 month old, then my 1 year old, a 2 year old and Ambria and Carter who are 4. It took me 45 minutes to get to Chrissy's house from State Street and 5400 South and my car was running out of gas and I was sliding everywhere! Let's just say when I got there I didn't attempt to go back to work and me and Chrissy just spent the day hanging out. Wow, what an adventure today was, but I am glad I could help her out. I can only imagine how freaked out she was breaking down, but then to have all of those kids too just made it that much worse. WHAT A DAY!
Ok Chrissy, here I go:
A - Attached or Single: Attached baby.
B - Best Friend: Chrissy Frickin Bailey!
C - Cake or Pie: mmmm pie.
D - Day of choice: Saturday
E - Essential Item: Hairspray
F - Favorite Color: RED!
G - Gummy Bears or Worms: worms
H - Hometown: K to the E to the A to the R to the N to the S (stop laughing)
I - Indulgence(s): My husband's foot massages
J - January or July: JULY for sure.
K - Kids: 800 no just kidding 5.
L - Life is incomplete without: Nick, kids and HAPPINESS
M - Marriage Date: January 30, 2006
N - Number of Siblings: 1 sis 1 cousin who is like sister so 2
O - Oranges or Apples: Oranges
P- Phobias or Fears- Please refer to the previous post :)
Q - Quotes: "Silence is golden, but duct tape is silver."
R - Reason to smile: Oh too many reasons!
S - Season: SUMMMER (I am ready)
T - Tag Three Friends: Shayla, Tatyana, and Sexy Housewife.
U - Unknown fact about me: I had a lazy eye when I was little.
V - Very favorite store: For my kids Childrens Place or Old Navy, for me Buckle, or BEBE
W - Worst habit: Bad mouth.
X - X-ray or Ultrasound: Uh, Ultrasound. But good hell, please tell me I'm not having more children! So, on the second thought, uh X-Ray?
Y - Your favorite food: Lofthouse sugar cookies at 3:00am. Yes, I still do that. :)
Z - Zodiac: Cancer.
I noticed something the past few mornings while I was putting on my makeup. I have started to do my makeup in the bathroom instead of my bedroom because the lighting is much better, but now I think I may have to switch back to the bad lighting after my little discovery. :)
I have wrinkles! No, I'm serious, I really do. I can see the starts of them at the corners of my eyes and my mouth and it is freaking me out! Nick laughs at me and says I'm crazy, but I can see them plain as day. I know I am getting older but I'm only 25 and I can see them already! What does that mean for me at 40? Maybe I should try some of that anti-ageing creamy stuff, or wrinkle stopper stuff.
My biggest fear in life is dying, but I think my second biggest fear would have to be getting old, and falling apart. It scares the bejesus out of me! I don't want to get old and not be able to do things on my own, and I sure as heck don't want to look old either. It's crazy to me how some people just age better than others. I really had hoped I would be one of those people!!!
Ah, Oh well..... now where do I get my cream?
We just had Ambria and Kayden over the weekend. Typically it was our weekend to have all the kids but they had plans with their mom. So since the kids weren't around to keep Ambria entertained we decided we would let her friend from across the street, Kela, come sleep over. She is 4 just like Ambria and they play really well together. Kela didn't really play with friends before Ambria went knocking on her door one day, and they have been best friends ever since. This was her first sleepover. She hasn't ever slept at anyones house before, and her parents weren't 100% sure she would make it through the night.
The night started out great. Kela brought over her Disney Princess rolling suit case with her jammies, hair brush, flashlight, bubble bath. It was really cute! Her and Ambria played with glow sticks and danced to Britney Spears in Ambria's room. Then they took a bath together and we had them go downstairs to watch movies so Kman could go to sleep. First they watched the Grinch, then Santa Claus 3. Not sure why they wanted to watch Christmas movies but I didn't complain because it kept them busy.
Nick and I laid down about 10:00pm and fell asleep. About midnight I heard my bedroom door squeak open. Ambria had come up to get a drink and came to wake us up to get her one. I told Nick to go down and make sure the TV was off and put them to sleep and when he went downstairs Kela was sitting up on the couch looking distraught. He asked "what's wrong honey?" and she said "Ambria keeps waking me up because she needs a drink!!!" She was NOT a happy camper. She asked Nick if he would take her home and Nick asked her if she wanted to give it one more chance. Her reply was "if she wakes me up one more time, I'M GOING HOME!" When Nick came upstairs he was laughing so hard he could hardly tell me what happened.
About 5 minutes later Kela came upstairs to tell Nick she had changed her mind and ask him if he would walk her home. When they got to her door they rang the doorbell a couple of times, and after standing there for about 5 minutes Nick asked "Do you want to just come back to our house honey, and you can sleep in the beds instead of on the couch" Kela replied "yes, but as long as I can sleep on the top bunk AWAY from Ambria!" Just as they were turning to walk around her mom answered the door and she went running in the house crying. Nick explained what had happened and her mom just laughed.
Yesterday when we were driving home from shopping Ambria asked "Mom, maybe next weekend Kela could come sleep over again" and I just laughed and said "honey, I'm not so sure she wants to sleep over anymore." Oh, that sweet child of mine.
If you know me at all you know that I LOVE the zodiac. It started many years ago when someone asked me what my sign was and I started to research what exactly being a "cancer" meant for me. Years and years later, I can say that I fit 99.99% of the cancerian tendancies and I am a firm believer that the Zodiac, and your sign, can tell people a lot about you - sometimes without them ever meeting you at all.
With that being said, I am also a firm believer that certain signs are compatible with certain signs. For example, Nick's parents are one of the cutest couples I know. They are constantly showing each other and telling each other how much they love one another, it is so stinken cute! His dad is an Aquarius, his mom is a Leo. The Zodiac list those two signs as SOUL MATES. It's so true, that is exactly what they are. Ok, so long long ago I looked up my soul mate and found out that the sign that best matches me is a Pisces. Pisces are such patient, warm, loving, giving people. THEY ARE FABULOUS!
It just so happens that I married a Pisces, yep, I sure did!! I tell you what, it has done NOTHING but make me more of a believer in the zodiac. Nick and I are seriously like best friends, you don't see that often in a relationship, or a marriage for that. We do everything together, and I can't get enough of the kid. He is very close to an Aquarius and I am very close to a Leo..and as I said before even those signs are a good match. I have him believing in the zodiac now. He has gotten really familiar with the main traits for each sign and he often guesses what people are before they ever tell him. So, if you haven't read up on your sign, or your partners sign, and how well you do together, you have some good reading to do. :)
Here is a good place to start to find out about your sign, and your compatibility with your parter.
ENJOY!
Ok, so I admit it, I'm a Britney fan, die hard. But honestly recently I think she has lost her marbles. I read somewhere that they think she has post partum depression, but I honestly think it is more than that. I mean the woman has gone nutso! It's really sad because she had a good shot at making a huge comeback, her CD is awesome (thus promoting her song on my playlist), but I think she might have done herself in this time. I'm a celebrity gossip freak, and I can't stop reading all the nasty things people say about her. I can't imagine being famous and having to live life like that reading every magazing heading about you and your life, out in the public, every day and everyone has their opinion on you. That would really suck.
Well, I will just go on listening to my Britney CD until she decides to get some medication and some serious counseling!! Carry on.
Kayden is home and doing well, back to his playful self. He has scabs on both cheeks from the stickers they had to use to keep his oxygen tubes in. They are healing but I thought I would post a few picks to show how much this little guy has gone through. What a trouper he is!!!
They just released Kayden to go home! We aren't going to take any oxygen and he has a follow up appointment tomorrow morning at 9:00am. It has been a long and bumpy road and my baby boy finally gets to come home. I am a little nervous for him to have any sort of trouble but I am so thrilled! I will let you all know what they say in the morning at his appointment.
I can't believe it has been a week since Kayden was admitted to the hospital. Ok, it feels like forever, but that just really sounds like a very long time. During the night last night they put him back on the oxygen. He drops to 86 when he sleeps, sometimes as low as 84. Good news is he hasn't had a breathing treatment or deep suctioning since yesterday at 10:30am. So he has made it a whole day without a treatment! His congestion is now higher in his chest and not so deep and he seems to get stuff up when he coughs which is good too.
They have talked about sending him home today with an oxygen tank for when he sleeps. He would be on oxygen at home when he sleeps for a couple of days. I would feel so much better about him going home if we had that there because of how he drops when he sleeps. That is the biggest worry right now is that he isn't getting the oxygen he needs. I will keep you posted.
It's official. My husband is the cutest thing on this planet. I sent him home to shower today and to get out of the hospital for a bit. When I got home tonight to shower I found these on the counter with a card:
HAHAHAHAHA I mean seriously, how cute is he? I AM SPOILED FREAKIN ROTTEN. But at least I know right? .... and I appreciate his comic relief. What a good man I got myself. He makes my life so easy even when it seems hard.Kayden improved quite a bit yesterday. He still had two treatments and two suction sessions last night but he still seems to be improving today. They took off his oxygen this morning and when he is awake he stays in the mid 90's. 100 is perfect and they don't like them to be under 88. He is sleeping right now and we are really testing him without oxygen while he sleeps because your oxygen levels tend to drop when you sleep. He is sitting at 88 right now. Everytime he goes uner 88 the alarm sounds but for about the past 45 minutes he has been sleeping he bounces back from 86 to 92. This is a really good sign that he is sleeping and maintaining a good level. They tell us his lungs are sounding better, not so tight and not so wheezy.
Last night you could tell that he was starting to feel better. He is so sick of having air tubes and monitor wires on him. He has started to put up a fight when they come in and listen to him, or take his vitals where before he was so weak he would just sit there and allow them to do whatever to him. He decided last night that he was fed up with the breathing tubes so he took ahold of them and yanked them out! They are attached to his cheeks with sticky things that are really hard to get off but he pulled so hard he detached one side completely. I am happy to see he is regaining his strength and starting to come back to his old self! The doctor is supposed to come and check on him in a little while, but he hasn't had a breathing treatment since about 10:30am. :)
Well it's day 5 and guess what, Kayden is staying another night. Last night wasn't such a great night for him and he was restless and congested. He hasn't had much of a fever the past 2 days so that is good, but his eyes and ears are really goopy and bugging him. He is such a trouper. I sent Nick home to sleep because he is going to fall over. He sent me home last night a little before midnight because I can't stop watching the oxygen monitor and every time Kayden rolls over his tubes fall out of his nose and the alarm goes off because he drops under the 90 mark. So, if I stayed I wouldn't sleep at all. Nick is so much better about that, he just gets up fixes it and goes to sleep where i kinda freak out a little. Anytime the monitor goes off I jump and run over there. I am such a stressball about things like that. I know he is in good hands and the staff is monitoring him all the time but I just get so worried that he isn't getting air and something is wrong.
My work has been so understanding. I am not coming back until he is home and well. I can't be away from him when I know he needs me here. He has become such a snuggler and so lovey. He just wants you to hold him and he lays his head on your shoulder and sleeps. He is asleep right now, and I just sit and watch him just hoping the sleep will help him feel better and get better faster. I have decided now that I am just going to take it one day at a time. It's the only way I am ever going to make it through this with my sanity.
I went to work this morning at 8:00 and I left at 8:30. My boss saw that I wasn't doing super hot and he told me to go be with my son. When I got to the hospital this morning about 10:00am Kayden was the worst I had seen him so far. He now has two ear infections and is leaking green goop from his eyes. His eyes were swollen and he was so congested. I didn't think it could get any worse, but it did. As the day has gone on he has really seemd to start to feel better. They put him on Zithromax this morning for the infections in his ears and to help clear up his eyes. Either it is the medicine working or he may be over the hump. I took his oxygen off for a few min while he was playing and he stayed over 90 which is great! He is napping now and I am hoping that we are on the down side of this. I want my baby boy to come home. I will keep you posted. Thanks for everyones support.
I'm at home tonight and my baby boy is still in the hospital. I feel so utterly empty inside. It's like someone has my heart in their hand and they are squeezing it over and over again. I can't even explain how bad it hurts knowing I can't just go in the next room and see him. I am going to attempt to work a half day tomorrow, but I am not sure I will make it. If he does bad tonight I am not going in, but I really thought I should try. Ok, heartbreaking story time.
Ever since Kayden was born I have waited and waited for him to say mama. There is just something about the first time a child calls you mom that is so special and I couldn't wait until he said it. I have tried over and over to get him to do it but he just won't. There have been a few times when he has muttered something close to mama, but he has never really actually said it ...that is, until today. Every couple of hours the nurses have to come in and give him a breathing treatment to open his lungs, but before they do that they stick a tube down his nose and into his throat to suction out the junk. I have to leave the room because one I have a very weak stomach for those types of things and two I cannot stand to hear him cry and be in pain. I truely breaks my heart. The last time they suctioned him out I stayed close enough to where I could hear him and as I left the room and they laid him on the bed to start he very clearly cried out for me "MA MA, MA MA" and I just broke down in tears. He wanted me to help him, he was calling for me to come back because he knows when I leave the room they are going to have to do it again and he hates it.
Sometimes in life we get caught up in things and we forget what is really important. I think this has really taught me a lesson that it doesn't matter what you have, or how nice of things you have, or any of that crap. All I want is for my baby to be home and my husband to be home and for everyone to be healthy and running around the house playing. I would do anything for that.
Nick has been so wonderful. He is definitely the strong one when it comes to this stuff. He has been without sleep for a week now and he is tired but he pretends he's not, not because he is Mr. tough guy, but because he doesn't want me to worry and he wants to take care of it all. I don't know where I would be in my life had I never met Nick. He is my backbone and I depend so much on him. Sometimes I don't tell him enough how much I love him and how much I notice all of the things he does. I must be the luckiest girl in the world to have someone like him.
I really hope this is over soon.
Well it's day 3 and Kayden is still in the hospital. He had a pretty good night having a breathing treatment about midnight and then not again until 7:00am-the longest span so far. Although, about half way through the night his oxygen levels dropped and he was put back on oxygen. This morning about 10:30 they tried to take him off of it to see how he would do and he dropped again, so they put him back on it. The tubes really seem to make his nose itchy and they bother him. The poor little guy-I just want to take him home to his own bed and to his house.
I had kinda a rough morning and have had an emotional day. It is so hard to see someone you love so much so miserable. He is such an amazing little guy and it breaks my heart to have him like this. I just want to help him but there isn't anything we can do really. They had hoped he would be released this morning but with all that has gone on today we are still here and don't know when we are leaving. I asked the doctor how much longer he will be like this and although they say it shouldn't be too long, they aren't completely sure. Most kids go home the next day, and we are on day 3 now.
Nicks parents are in town, and I talked to Nick's dad on the phone today about giving Kayden a blessing. They stopped in on their way to church and he had a member of the church help him perform the blessing. Although I am not LDS, it does make me feel better inside, and a blessing is still a blessing no matter what religion you are. It really helped me to feel a little more at ease.
So, we will just hang in there and keep a good eye on our little man. I will keep you posted on how things go.
Thursday Kayden woke up with a wheeze. I couldn't believe how bad it was but Nick and I decided that we both had missed a lot of work lately with being off for the Holidays and Kayden being sick so much these past few months, so we went to work. Chrissy kept a good eye on him and that night I took him in to see his doctor. The listened to him and were concerned with his breathing so they gave him a shot of steroids in his leg to help open his airways. I took him home and he had a rough night because he was having a hard time breathing.
Ok, so everyone's New Years resolution is always to lose weight, but this year that is NOT the case for me. My New Year's resolution is to EAT LESS SALT! Wish me luck...oh this is going to be a hard one!
What is your New Years resolution?
